In Retrospect

Been reading through my posts for the past 2 years, and I realized esp for this year that it's been so emo. But those were very real emotions. It's so funny to see how one moment I can post something optimistic and happy only to see myself post a depressed piece just a few hours later...... Gosh. Haha. You know I still can't believe I'm turning 21 this year. This was not how I imagined turning 21 would be like back when I was still an angsty pimply hormone raging teenager. I still feel the same, like nothing's changed. I mean, I know things have changed and I know I have changed... but somehow I still feel the same.

Tonight I feel happy and blessed. I (Lau ah Pek), had a good time learning how to bowl from my shifu B (Ah Ben-g) and bowled my highest score ever of 99 pins!! (Yay!!!) (Ya in case you're wondering, those were the names we keyed for each other for our bowling match) (Yeh I know so hard to believe I'm 21 and B is 24 this year when we are still so childish) Haha. I know I've always been blogging emo stuff around here..... and it sounds as though B and I have a terrible relationship. But you know we have more than our fair share of happy/crazy/funny/silly/loveydovey times too. 90% of the time I feel like I am just the luckiest gal in the world... the other 10% of the time.......... lets just say I'd be on my tippy toes if I were B. Haha.


WELL. It feels good to be back home. I missed Singapore. It's my fav country in the world. I better go now if i want to sleep away my eyebags, especially when I have to wake up extra early for my 8am class tomorrow.

See you very soon!blogged at11:36 PM

To The Girl That I Used To Hate

Hi there.
Somehow I'm glad that you're okay. Seeing you move on has helped me to move on too. I'm so glad to see that you're so happy now. It makes me treasure what I have with B too. Sometimes when I look at your pictures, or when I think about you randomly just before I fall asleep at night, I still feel that tiny pang in my heart. That tiny bolt of insecurity+jealousy+hatred+goodnessknowswhat. But I have learnt to push it away. I rarely think about you, and what you did nows adays. I hope one day I will be able to look at you and not feel a thing. You probably don't know the cost of what you did. Little girl, still living in your fantasy world. One day you might know. Have a good life. I hope this will be the last time I write about you, or anything related to you here. Goodbye.blogged at1:47 AM

L. T.


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