it's all about you, Jesus (:

that's all it's about.
after mentoring with nadia, i've really come to realize, how foolish i was in the past. i really don't know why i wasted my time, thinking i was attracted to people in that special way.
so naive.

God has someone planned out there for me, i know it. he will come to me when the time comes, and right now all i have to do is just serve God, trust in him and love him with all my heart, all my soul.

people go into relationships, just to satisfy their own pleasures. their own selfish pleasures. to feel good, to feel loved, to feel special. satisfy certain needs. whatever for? you have God, that's all you need. i don't need someone whispering sweet nothings into my ear, someone holding my hand, nothing. God loves me, Jesus loves me, my family loves me, my friends love me, and i know it.

going into a relationship now, when im still not yet spiritually mature, will only push me further away from God. my priorities would have changed, and i will definately stray. in a relationship, God must be first. and right now, i don't think i'm ready yet. i'm not strong enough.
God has yet to finish moulding me. he has great plans for me, i know it.

i am so thankful, that in the past 'relationships' i've been in, i've not given away too much. this book that im doing with nadia for mentoring, says that once you've been in a relationship with someone, you've given a part of your heart to that person forever. and by the time you find the right person to marry, all you've got left to give, is really only what's left. you'll always remember your first kiss, the first time you held hands, anything. so i'm really thankful that God has still kept me 'pure' in that sense. and thats how i want to remain, till the day of marriage, where i can finally give the love of my life, my whole heart. pure, and whole.

i'm really not planning to date anyone till i find the right person. till God tells me he's the one. that person has to love God above anyone else. then love his parents, and his family. then me. that's all i ask.

i promise, the next person i date, will be the person i marry.blogged at11:10 PM

the l-o-v-e song is still stuck in my head. haha. it's really quite nice. it's in the chanel advertisement.
samuel is emo-ing now.
just a few more weeks till o levels start.
i can't wait.
so many things to do after o levels!
gunna watch chitty chitty bang bang the musical with clique, sleepover, council chalet, and everything!

samuellllll, i know you're gunna read this. cmonnnnnnnnn, we're buddies!
you're super funny, and you're really, sensitive (in a good way) too.
you're awesomeeeee (:
don't get mad please (:
fine. i'm gunna stalk you in school tmr.
kdsfkdsfnsakjfiwjfkdsa.blogged at10:16 PM

L is for the way you look, at me
O is for the only one, i see
V is very very, extra-ordinary
E is even more, than anyone that you adore

and love, is all that i can give, to you
love, is more than just a game, for two
two in love can make it
take my heart but please don't break it,
love, was made for me and you


stupid song, got stuck in my head. by the end of chemistry, almost every girl in class was singing it. haha.

today was a lovely day. i had so much fun in school. i'm sure gunna miss this school.):
love you, fairfield (:blogged at9:40 PM

happy birthday rachel & aiwee (:

i love you both so much!


i heard that pastor adrian's coming to speak in chapel on tuesday!
that's so awesomeeeeeeee :D
God's hand in his life, opening so many doors for him.
i'm gunna make sure everyone in chapel shuts up and listens to him preach.
yay.
wonder who invited him though, i thought no one's heard of cnl, lol.
so exciting (:blogged at9:12 PM

i can't believe it.
i wasted two whole days being sick.
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i'm still running a fever.
i want to go school tomorrow!!!
skdjalsfjkdsljfdsjflsjfladl!!!
tomorrow's gunna be so fun.
i'm going to school tmr.
i don't care.
i drank 32423332453243432432423434324324324 million trillion zillion cups of water already, okay? geesh.

i thank God for my results, thank you.
i'm gunna do better then this though, for o levels.
i don't want to change any of my marks, just want my humanities to get an a1.
that's all i ask.
7 points.
please?

please let me not be sick tomorrow please.
i tried eating salt, drinking lime, eating panadol, eating the herbal candy that aiwee always eats,
drinking lots and lots of water...........
what am i suppose to do here????
okay, im sweating.
sweating's good right?
gross, but good for fever, apparently.
so maybe i should start exercising.
a few rounds of jumping jacks?
maybe i should go to a suana.

ugh, this post is so rubbish.
did i tell you about what happened at 2am when i started running a fever again?
i thought that i was all the contestants in 'live the dream' , i kid you not.
not one of the contestants.
all of the contestants.
i know.
the fever was really getting to my head.
then i realized, wait a minute, i'm female, i can't be a male..
oh, yeaaaah, okay okay, i'm the sugarettes.
.......
lollollollol.
i am dead serious.

yuck, i'm drinking lime again.
my maid made me,
says it's good for the throat.
sour.
maybe if i blow bubbles into it,
the lime juice will go chalky!
oh wait, sorry, inappropriate use of terms here.
white percipitate is formed in the lime water from the bubbles of gas produced.
ms liang will be proud.

for the millionth time :


i think i cant last a day. says:
haha
i think i cant last a day. says:
okay, drink more water!


AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.blogged at8:32 PM

suck.

38.5 degrees.

home sick.

feels like crap.

i prayed, you didn't heal me?blogged at12:10 PM

prelim results tomorrow.




AHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
i'm so freaking scared.
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i'm so nervous.


don't want to go to school.

i'm here, no matter what. (:blogged at9:52 PM

sweet jesus,
let me bask in your glory,
your awesomeness,
i am in awe with you.

i feel your sweet prescence in me
oh, the wonderful spirit.
jesus, jesus, sweet, sweet jesus
i love you, i love you, i love you.

embrace me, oh lord.
overpower me with your love
crush me with your sweet sacrfice.
my jesus, sweet jesus, i love you.blogged at8:50 PM

ahhh, shucks. it's okay, i can deal with disappointment. but i just don't see why people dont seize the chance when they know that miracles can happen for them. it will happen. but it's okay. you won't come, but i will pray for you there. your life and everything will have a turn around, buddy. (: no fear, Jesus is with us.blogged at12:17 AM

card games

in a corner
friends huddle
screams
shouts
'SPEED!'
nudging
anticipation
fun
laughter

if only time would stop now.
immersed, without a trouble, happy.

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yeah, right.blogged at4:15 PM

things to scream and shout about

1. ONE LAST PAPER TO GO. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
2. STEAMBOAT TOMORROW WITH CLIQUE. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
3.MIRACLE RALLY ON SAT. SHOULD I BRING MY PARENTS. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
4.I AM GOING TO BE LATE MEETING NADIA. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
5. ONE LAST PAPER TO GOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!
6.DMSKFJDSLKJFDSNKDSHFKJFKDJFKAJEOJSLFSF. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
DHSAJFKASJLKJKSLDJFLKDSJFOAIDLKSJFAAISJWEJFSLFJSALJF! I HATE BEING ME.

steamboat is like, so last minute. but whatever, we're gunna have fun and go crazy. BECAUSE PRELIMS WOULD BE OVER THEN. YEAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH.

i am really going to be late.

please keep me breathing. thank you.blogged at4:55 PM

i woke up with a smile on my face today. been a long time since i've done it. never felt like that for a longgggg long time. not once this year, at least.

it's so beautiful. to wake up to something so wonderful. something to look forward to. it's like, someone cares, you know?
alas, all good things must come to an end. don't think this will happen again for a long longggg time.

i hate myself for being so weak. always, always, succumbing to all sorts of temptations around me.

give me strength,
be with me
all i need is you, lord
stay with me
talk me through
the whole night long.
gaurd over my heart
please don't let anyone in.
they'll stab it from inside out.

samuel, this is what it's all about.blogged at7:01 PM

they were right when they said it wasn't going to be any easier.

i need prayer, to focus entirely on whats important right now. to focus on God, studies, family and friends. thats all i need, all i want.

i think i have to stop reading too much into things. but, i am thankful, for all the wonderful brothers and sisters that i have in christ, the leaders, my friends and my family. thank God(:

saturday's sermon by pastor helen really got to me. she's so cute. but i totally agree with her on everything she says. i knew abt all those things she mentioned already, but i just needed to hear someone else say it. and i'm glad she did. she's such a wise, old, spunky woman.

Jesus, keep me focus.blogged at5:47 PM

You're way too beautiful girl
That's why it'll never work
You have me suicidal, suicidal
When you say it's over
Damn all these beautiful girls
They only wanna do you dirt
They'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When they say it's over

love it(:

my favourite sound, is the sound of popcorn popping in the microwave. i love that sound. i'd sit on the kitchen floor reading while the popcorn pops. you should try it one day(:

words so loose
spoken before thinking
too fast
too late
goodbye, mate.

i'm sorry.blogged at2:36 PM

watching movies with samuel is so annoying! ugh!! you just want to stuff all the popcorn into his mouth. hahaha. he talks really loudly, all the time, asking stupid questions, and eating and drinking other people's food like it's his. makes you just want to slap him, doesn't it? hahaha. sorry samuel, you know you're my buddy don't you! :D

watched the last legion with samuel, rophi, jonathan, leon and mark. i know, so weird right? haha, went to get presents for people. RACHEL better appreciate the gift.

hahaha, daivd just told me klammy stood for kook laura and munch mence, YUMMY. LOL, the nonsense in the past, was fun (:

anyway david, i told you i'd get you. you try to talk to me again with smarterchild and i'll reveal to everyone your deepest, darkest secret! CL!

good day today(:blogged at10:46 PM

aiwee, caleb and samuel came over today. did emaths paper 1, and played bridge. it was quite fun (: i mean, you know caleb. he's like, so -.- hahah. and then there's samuel, who's like, so, hahah, i dunno. and then you put them together, and you get !@#$^%&!!! pandemonium.
a state of utter confusion, chaos, and what nots. and apparently i don't know why but i kept on thinking aiwee was like the opposition when she's always my partner. hahhhhh, but it was fun.
caleb lost the most, and i'm mostly stuck as his partner and hence i lost a lot too. sigh, caleb sucks, haha.

caleb's planning a class chalet in december, hooray! he's a really good class chairman, i must say.

out tomorrow, wednesday(not confirmed), thursday, and friday. geeeeeesh. so much for studying during the holidays.

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slkdsejfiwjfeiwjfirefjiriejfwfjkdlmvkvnjdfvwokkffkdsjdjflmewlflkjdslksaldk;lakdkdoksaldklncdnvjnvkwf!!


back atcha. stop confusing me. go away.blogged at9:18 PM

i experienced the most peculiar feeling ever today in service.
pastor francis was praying over me, and then he was saying something about how i will find joy in everything i do, and i'll spread the joy to everyone, something about how i'm just so joyful and i'll sparkle and everything, and then i just felt this like. warm happiness over me. and the next thing i knew i was just grinning away, smiling a really wide smile, and i couldn't control myself. i really felt like crying, i wanted to bawl away, but i couldnt control myself and i was just smiling such a huge smile. i dunno i felt quite retarded after that, but it's a really weird feeling, like i wanted to cry, but i was smiling instead. i dunno how to describe luh. it's just like. it wasn't me smiling. i dunno. like something else was controlling me instead. i only started to cry after that when he moved on to the next person. but anyway im really happy(: i really really, love jesus. i love him i love him i love him. no one else matters but him. and i'm going to spread the joy, spread the love to everyone, just like pastor francis said i would. Jesus loves me soooooo much. and i'm so lucky. Jesus loves us all! we're all so lucky, damn it.

i have faith that my family will be saved. they will be saved. yes, Jesus, you will save them lord!

Jesus, i surrender
i draw nearer
i fall down

you're my master
be my saviour
be my shelter
be my God.blogged at11:04 PM

L. T.


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