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Thursday, December 21, 2006
15 years , 8 days, 1 hour, 19 mintues. yes, i'm older now.

fake smiles, forced laughs, happy fronts. why am I so happy?

toilet visits, lies , excuses, frequent. i try, i really do.

15 years, 8 days, 1 hour, 19 mintues. am i wiser, though?

there is something i need to say, something i need to admit, something i need to stop doing, something i cannot do alone.

but don't worry, it's not commiting suicide or anything haha.

hah. so drama, eh? well. anw, i just want to thank everyone rohpi, rachel, aiwee for the lovely time spent on my birthday, and for planning the surprise(haha) party, and for baking the most wonderful cheesecake on earth. love you peeps(: thankyou julia f and cheryl for spending my birthday with me, too! (esp your nutritious instant oatmeal and vegetarian biscuits "big breakfast" julia! hah!) thankyou my beloved saxy section(josiah theodore caspar grace), esp grace for the great time at the zoo! and all your presents too haha. and everyone else who rmbd my special day[:

oh yea, and i really love my sister loads. she is the best ever! and. Hi, jean bean.

well there's nothing particularly exciting going on right now. or has been anw. just camps and band. i really like going for band now. my section's great, band's great.

watched The Holiday. it's your typical romance film, but kinda boring, really. must be the company. (i watched it with rachel and rophi, just so you know. ahaha) and i bought fake hair, i can't believe it.

ian's such an ass. but he's funnily so, and dorkily so too. haha.

i miss C.A.W(alex/weewee) alot. we talked abt our plans for the future. aahah. kinda. naive little things we are, if only things ever go so smoothly.

after sooo long, it just stales, numbs, freezes. i'd be happy to heat it up again, but the warmth just isn't there.


they just give it to her, because she was there with them. she knows all their going-ons, and they just give it to her for face. it's a figure head, kinda thing. it shouldn't have been her. it should have been someone more worthy. im not worthy.
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