i feel like such a lousy friend. my primary school friends whant me to go back today.. i don't want to. but i dunno how to say no. and jean needs me right now. but. i just. bah. was suppose to go shopping? but i dunno whats going on so. whatever. anw. teacher's day celebration yesterday. then gavin and i went out with rachel and bram. we watched the break up. cheryl's right. the ending was like.. huh? wtf. haha. and then we went shopping for a leeeeeetle while. and then rachel and bram left. lol. i guess it was pretty much horrible for bram and rachel. but that's another story. anw. then i went over to gavin's house. and we played ps2 hahaha. we played some soccer thing and i so won him luh. haha. but thats because he let me and he gave me the better team. but still.. and we played american idol haha. the singer was like off key and it was funny. and in the end he was the american idol... \: hahahaha. and he tried to teach me how to play the guitar but it's hopeless. and he did more magic tricks. and he showed me how some of it was done. and after u know how he did it it was like. theres no more.. fun in it anymore. just dumb tricks lol. kinda spoils it. and i tried to juggle too. i think gavin can be a clown when he grows up. he can juggle and do magic tricks and all.

well i don't think im ready to go to caleb's church yet. had my first session of on-the-phone devotions with rophi yesterday night. i'll continue and see how it goes. and when im ready, i'll go. caleb says the invitation's open whenever im ready. so yep.blogged at12:31 PM

my previous post was so emo. hah. oh well. everything's better now and im happy(: my results this term are not bad. im pretty satisfied. i think i might get a1 for almost everything. i think. maybe not. but i hope i can. and i passed chem test! yay. i always knew i was a genius deep down. hurhurhur. i really really want to go church. but i dont wanna go to their church. maybe i shld go to caleb's church? lol. happy belated belated birthday rophi. and cheryl. and clemence and ching yang. yup. im hap hap happy, today!blogged at2:45 PM

was just wondering if i shld blog or not. after a few week long hiatus. but whatever.

it's one let down after another.

one huge blow after another.

i don't know how much longer i can take this.

depend on no men but God.
that's the moral of the story. you can't depend on anyone. not even yourself. but God will always be there for you. a shoulder to cry on. an ear for listening. and a prescence so comforting. i will stay faithful and loyal to no one else but God. love no men more then i love God.


so many things been happening lately. friends or rather, a friend, who betrayed my trust. i trusted her enough for her to be left alone. and it's not like im mad. yet she's just screwing herself up by thinking i hate her or something. why would i hug you if i'm angry? why did you even do it.
let's count the number of let-downs in a month. one.

i gave you everything that could possibly mean to me. our times spent together, the fun we had together. those special moments. and my love. all those thrown away. destroyed but your disgusting lecherous lust that got the better of you. men are all disgusting sick mammals. i will never ever trust in another one that way for a long long time. two.

i guess recently everyone's been pissing everyone else off. (in the clique i mean)
and i didn't do anything to help. rather, i added on to it. so. yea. i let myself down too. three.

three major let-downs. i really need a break.
anyway. i realized whenever i have a problem and i need someone to talk to, somehow aiwee would be online and she wld come and talk to me. and then everything will be alright again.


Don't look at me
Every day is so wonderful
And suddenly, it's hard to breathe
Now and then, I get insecure
I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring me down
So don't you bring me down today
No matter what we do
No matter what they say
We're the song inside the tune
Full of beautiful mistakes
And everywhere we go
The sun will always shine
And tomorrow we might wake on the other side
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L. T.


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